• i paint my new apartment friday
• i move into my new apartment saturday
• i meet my new therapist saturday 

life ain’t so bad. 

• four screenplays: develop, complete by september
• journal: write everything down, observe
• smile more
• say ‘fuck you’ more
• tell more stories
• reminder: stay open, stay vulnerable, it’s worth it
• reminder to the above statement: let the right ones in
• don’t answer emails after 9pm
• stick to the gym 5 days a week
• if offered, take the sublet, move on
• reminder: do more things for myself
• reminder: don’t splurge on unnecessary things
• reminder: don’t spend time with the unworthy
• make more playlists/mixtapes (whatever, i’m corny)
• go to montauk 
• jump out of a plane (this may!)
• don’t go for the last word, it’s never worth it
• split wardrobe in half, nyc is minimalism  
• be less stubborn
• love the right people, show it often
• learn a new word a day, don’t be a dummy
• travel, at least twice this year… alone, even
• actively listen 
• wake up earlier (yeah, right)
• reminder for the above statement: fuck you, get up
• marathon the ‘before…(sunrise, sunset, midnight)’ series back to back 
• drink less 
• hydrate more
• read a book a week for the next year 
• reminder for above: make the fucking time
• go on more dates… with yourself
• paint, paint often
• when stressed, workout 
• when sad, workout
• when happy, workout 
• when nappy, buy better product (or sleep, depending)
• let things go unanswered (emails, texts, phone calls, feelings)
• yell less
• cry without fear of judgment
• be less masochistic 
• take longer drives
• go out with co-workers more
• go out with former co-workers more
• see friends more
• be happier

an adventure, 

the road map kind.

leading nowhere, 

everywhere.

Me;

Fagged, eyes red

telling stories of slumber and sands

passing through months and moments.

Moments ever consuming, 

teeming and taut.

Foundation laid, 

strain weaved through

alleys and pavements, tinted rose gold.

The fork is near, after the brush and wold, 

with questions proposed.

“I have a list,” 

“I’m open.” 

“It’s extensive,” 

“Treasure awaits.”

-j.b.

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